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Currently im staying in a treatment center for mental health and addictions. It's a harm reduction facility so it can get quite chaotic and stressful around paydays and weekend when people "pop out" and use or drink> I, myself, have been clean/sober for over 3 months now and , although its difficult at times, im feeling extremely grateful for it. I am going to NA , doing the 12 steps, and reaching out to my sponsor and others.
My mom and I are re-uniting soon which is nerve wracking and exciting. I miss her though and havent seen her in years. Im grateful for this opportunity. I meet with her counsellor tomorrow.
As for the anorexia, its still with me. I havent eaten anything solid in 5 days as I speak and am terrified to do so. Some days i wonder if ill ever recover, especially since im not 100% willing to let it go yet.
I cant wait to get my own place again and a job so i feel useful. Im on disability for now and can stay on it forever if i choose, but i want to give to society and help others in some way someday....
Anyways, im not sure what else to say, other than im grateful to be alive today....
take care everyone!
kait
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