Journal de GlennM, 21 juil. 10

Doing OK. Slept all evening. I am seriously thinking of moving this autumn. I have literally no social life here. Of course, the dog I will miss terribly and she is the only reason I know I haven't left and I can't afford to take her. But I must live my life for me. I can't stay here and age another five or seven years waiting for the dog to pass and not move. As I said I have no life here and my family is nonexistent in my life. My mother hasn't visited me once in fourteen years and she is eight miles away, no car of course but my younger sister and her can go to the mall or anywhere or to restaurants and never stop by here. Now my younger sister has a full-time job so that is more of an excuse not to visit. I don't have a car. I am planning on going to the island of Oahu in Hawaii where there is a social life and a big city area so I know things will be better there for me. I am clinging here to stuff that doesn't exist in reality, except a delusion of a family that can't bother with me and that I haven't seen since Christmas and they all live nearby. The dating sites are dead here so that is the final straw, I am not living like a monk the rest of my days here. Anyway, tomorrow I will check autumn air fares and start a list for selling my possessions on the Internet. I will do calories and vocabulary words tomorrow. I'm tired now...