So today I feel better. When my private life is off balance it throws my whole being off balance. Dealing with a death in the family and still trying to focus on work, the kids and school is really hard. I was just moving along, I really wasn't paying anything any real attention. We would grab this to eat, or go here to eat because with all the meetings and everything I just didn't have time to cook. So Sunday i decided to just break from everything for a day and I cooked a meal for me and the kids(something I hadn't done in a little while) My kids came back for seconds and thirds. My oldest said "Mom, I know it hasn't bee nthat long, but I missed you cooking at home". I had been cooking for others at their home because my cousin's husband died. I went grocery shopping last night, and I realized looking at my bank statement that i hadn't been grocery shopping in almost a moth. We were just picking up this, or eating at my cousins house becaise i've been trying to help her cope, and we haven't been eating good at all. So I cooked again last night and the kids loved being home eating dinner together as usual. Time out for me doing so much for others that I forget about us. There I go again, how can I balance myself if I keep allowings everything to throw me of course? Well I feel good, I did 45 minutes of walking yesterday! Yay! Hopefully I will start to see some changes because I already ready feel different.
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