Journal de LostKittenRae, 17 août 10

Well I didn't quite hit the "153" again like I had hoped to... but I'll tell you what I did do... I said screw you 15 miles and I one upped my work out and did 16 miles last night... yeah that's right baby! One mile more then I've ever done for a work out... I know one mile more may not seem like a big deal at first glance... but it was an incredible leap to me... I've never been able to push past 15 miles... I'm usually just thankful to have dragged my achey back and sore ass to the 15 mile mark little lone trying to push through another mile... but I did it... 16 miles on the elliptical and burned 1,830 calories :) I can't wait till I can hit burning 2000 carlories one of these days... if I could just push another mile and a half I would probably hit the 2,000 calories burned mark... I also kept my calorie count obnoxiously low yesterday...

It feels like my work outs are all I have to be proud of right now... the only thing that seems to calm me down lately... I mean I'm still in a dark mood but at least I'm not a total wreck crying myself to sleep... I was probably too tired to cry after going 16 miles... I passed out the moment I hit the pillow which was very nice... I need that right now... I need to eliminate alone time to think... that's no bueno... my heads a dangerous place... I shouldn't be left alone to play in it for too long...

On the bright side of things, something I hadn't mentioned yet... I'm going to get to fly up to Oregon this Labor Day Weekend, Sept. the 3rd... For those of you who don't know, Oregon is my dream state... I would give anything to live in Portland some day... it's my dream city... although I'd probably be equally as happy to be anywhere in Oregon... I just can't afford to get out of this Hell state... and honestly I would never be able to afford to fly up there either... lucky for me I have a couple of the two greatest friends up there... one that's flown me up to Portland before... and one that's flying me up to Eugene to hang out in Roseburg for the 3rd time this year... I don't know how I got so lucky... if anything will cure my soul a little it's a weekend in Oregon... plus it'll be good to see my friend again... it's definitely something nice to look forward to... keep my mind from dwelling on my inner emotions too much right now...

Anyways, work's been Hell lately... but what else is new... I'm looking forward to going to Applebees tonight... then tomorrow I'll get to see the boys... Justin promised we could bake cookies, I hope he still wants to... I could sure go for some cookies... don't worry I'll make up for it with a work out on Thursday...

I hope everyone has a nice Tuesday!!!

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1751 kcal

Gras: 80,50g | Prot: 80,30g | Glu: 177,20g.   Petit Déjeuner: oatmeal. Déjeuner: light southwestern style. Dîner: Pecan Crusted Chicken Salad. Snacks/Autre: ice cream drumstick, subway cookie, Mister Salty Milk Chocolate Covered Pretzels 100 Calorie Pack, Cheez-it party mix right bites. plus...