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Life just got really hard really fast. I am journaling now because I know that I'm a stress eater, and I have no idea how the day is going to go. My 15 year old daughter is severely depressed, and I'm very concerned about her, but there's not much I can do about it right now. She has an appointment with a psychiatrist later this week. My 18 year old son woke me up around 4am having pains. He needed to go to the emergency room, but when he turned 18, he was taken off of my Medicaid. So, the emergency room is out of the question. I have to get on the phone at 8am and try to find some sort of free emergency clinic, and then I have to try to find a way for him to get some sort of medical coverage. It's now 7:30. I've been up since 4am. I am very hungry, but of course, making a protein shake is not something I'm going to be able to do. I've already relapsed on my smoking because of the stress, but I don't want to blow my diet and end up back at square one. I have to find a way to get through times like this without eating junk. It almost seems selfish to be thinking about me at a time like this.
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572 kcal
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Gras: 22,05g | Prot: 22,28g | Glu: 74,09g.
Petit Déjeuner: Great Value French Vanilla Creamer, Coffee, McDonald's Egg White Delight. Snacks/Autre: Snickers Snickers Bar. plus...
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I'll keep you and your children in my prayers and hope that all comes together well. And, don't say that you are selfish! Obviously you are working very hard for your children and it is only natural to consider yourself through this. Best of luck... keep us posted.
22 avr. 13 par le membre: KatieTyrell
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Thank you Katie. My feelings were kind of hurt. None of my buddies said anything all day. I've been dealing with my son's problem all day. We're headed to the emergency room now with no insurance. The entire day was spent trying to find coverage for him but no luck. So I'll be at the hospital all night because I'm pretty sure my son needs surgery. No Zumba for me tonight and God knows what dinner is going to be. Thanks for the prayers.
22 avr. 13 par le membre: LisaPhenon
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Lisa if your son needs emergency surgery and is an adult he apply for the hospital and possibly the doctors to write off his balance as charity. Hospitals don't always do that but they do it often enough that it's worth talking to them about. It is truly a shame to live in a country without tax funded, universal healthcare. I will pray for your children.
I stopped smoking after reading Easyway To Stop Smoking by Alan Carr. Maybe you could get a copy sometime.
22 avr. 13 par le membre: TristanZ
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Oh my gosh sweetie, I'm so sorry, I didn't see this! Bless your heart you've got a lot on your plate! Don't worry about your eating, you have to cope with life as it's happening right now. Ditto with smoking. Deal with taking care of your son right now. ((((big hugs))))
22 avr. 13 par le membre: CollyMP
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Thanks buddies. I just got home, and I'm in desperate need of sleep. I took my son to the clinic at his University first. The doctor wrote him a referral to go straight to the ER for emergency surgery. I spent the afternoon making phone calls and debating about what to do. I don't want my son saddled with medical bills, but he was scared and in pain, and insisted on going. So, I took him. After testing and an ultrasound, it turned out to just be an infection. He got antibiotics and pain killers, no surgery thank God! I have an application to fill out for financial assistance. I pretty much smoked all day which is really sad since I haven't had a cigarette since March 7. I didn't do well with my diet... McDonalds for breakfast, Bo'Jangles for lunch, Taco Bell for dinner, and a snickers for my sanity. Tomorrow morning is my daughter's appointment, and she'll probably have to start on behavioral/depression meds. I hate to be Debbie Downer, but it just looks like it's going to be a tough week. Thanks for your support.
22 avr. 13 par le membre: LisaPhenon
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Oh thank goodness it was just an infection! That's the important part, he's going to get better, no surgery, and smaller bills for medical care. If your daughter is depressed, meds can really help, once they get the right combination. The financial assistance is there for a reason, don't stress over needing it. We all need some help from time to time. Regarding the food-honey you have so much going on, please don't beat yourself up over THAT. Yes, watching your calories is important but when your babies are ill you have to put that on the back burner and take care of your babies (I don't care how big they get either, they're still always your babies, aren't they?)
23 avr. 13 par le membre: CollyMP
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That's true Colly. They're my big babies. I'm gonna try harder with the diet today though. You're right, the last thing I was worried about was counting calories, but I don't want to completely lose my way, so I'm going to try to get back on track today.
23 avr. 13 par le membre: LisaPhenon
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STop! Take 10 deep breaths, get it together, what happens in your life is directly related to what choices you make. I know everything seems crazy, but it's really okay. You just have to get a grip, and don't allow your emotions to run your life. You are smoking and eating emotionally. I want you to learn positive coping mechanism to deal with life stresses, when you have these, you can dance in the rain, and stay calm through the storm. Start here by checking these sites out:
http://www.oprah.com/spirit/How-to-Make-Up-Your-Mind-Decision-Making-Eckhart-Tolle
http://www.chopracentermeditation.com/Bestsellers/OnlinePage.aspx?BookId=179&af=850&utm_source=RRSpirit&utm_medium=20130411&utm_campaign=1
Also have your daughter to check them out as well I think she may benefit from them. Listen, take care of yourself, be selfish. Because if you are not healthy and strong, how are you going to be strong for anyone else. You will be fine, as long as you know that you will be fine,,,,,you have the power, it's really all up to you. You are in my prayers......win!
23 avr. 13 par le membre: bluecreme
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Check out www.oprah.com, click on Spirit.....go from there
23 avr. 13 par le membre: bluecreme
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Do some research on the power of meditation.
23 avr. 13 par le membre: bluecreme
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Thank you for your concern, but I think I'm going to be okay. I got into meditation for a while. Maybe I should make it part of my daily routine again, but at this point, things are just moving kind of fast. I'm sure that soon I will have a chance to stop and breathe. I'm dressed right now getting ready to take my daughter to her appointment. After that, I'm going to drop her off at school, and then get my son to class. Once I get home, the house will be empty for a few hours, and I'll get it together. Thanks again. I'll keep you posted.
23 avr. 13 par le membre: LisaPhenon
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Big hugs sweetheart, so much going on at once, so much stress, you won't lose your way though, you'll get back on the calorie counting and exercise because they do help keep you centered and in control of those aspects of your life. You're doing everything you can to help your babies, and you've done it well. Now let go and let the rest happen. You've done your part. (((((more hugs)))))
23 avr. 13 par le membre: CollyMP
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I have been such a slacker!! I have not been logged on for 2 weeks, So Sorry to hear/see all the rought stuff Lisa- Stay strong, and just do what you gotta do. you and the kids are in my pryaers. Stay strong!!
23 avr. 13 par le membre: JenAWanab
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Thanks again everyone. I'm home for a couple of hours. The doctor decided to start my daughter on a mild antidepressant. Hopefully it will help. I went by McDonalds and got the new premium chicken wrap for lunch with water. The weather is beautiful which really helps my mood. My daughter told me I looked "trim" today which was nice to hear. So, onward and upward. My kids have what they need, and they're going to be okay, so I can start focusing on me again. I'll be happy to get back to the gym. Hugs back at you Colly! :)
23 avr. 13 par le membre: LisaPhenon
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I'm happy that the storm is over, stay focused, stay postive........win!
23 avr. 13 par le membre: bluecreme
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Glad to "see" you feeling more calm about the situation-and take all the hugs you want, I've got plenty to spare and if I run out...well I'll just make more!
23 avr. 13 par le membre: CollyMP
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So glad to hear that your son is doing better and I pray for your daughter's peace of mind! Life throws us curveballs sometimes, and I know that I will eat more and (eek, smoke some) when stressful times are at hand. Don't let those snickers bars get you down! Sometimes you just need one! :)
24 avr. 13 par le membre: KatieTyrell
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