Journal de fatgirllittlecoat, 19 déc. 13

With the holidays coming and my trip over seas looming ahead, I am afraid all of the good work I have done will just be for nothing. The past two days I ate food that I know is no good for me. My will is fading these days and I worry. I don't like how I look, when I think of myself I don't think that I am that fat, but then I will see a photo of myself or try of clothes in a the store and be shocked at how I look. I know this is not the body I am meant to have but I also know that its up to me to change that. I have to really work on my will power because that is my main fault. I guess that will be my New Years resolution- stronger will power. Then hopefully everything else will fall into place.