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The last few weeks have been the most challenging for me so far on my weight loss journey because they have nothing to do with what I eat or how much I exercise. I am fighting an invisible thing inside of me. My anxiety has reached a whole new level, and with that - a sense of impending "whythefuckbotherness" has crept in and chomped away at my inner motivator. I so appreciate the support of this community. But I pulled back this month for a few reasons. I read a post and it made me so sad. I didn't respond because my feelings were too loaded - I didn't want to judge but was definitely going to if I did respond. Then I got a comment on my thread that made me feel like I was being placed on a platform and had to be held to a standard that I don't feel fit to hold (if you've been the loser at the narcissist's table, you may understand the depth of that one). I am not perfect. I hit stumbling blocks on this journey. I also choose bright, shiny, happy, and to live in positivity... so maybe that has made me present myself as inauthentic. I am not perfect. I really struggle when people think I take it all in my stride and don't feel all the things - highs and lows. I just choose to keep the lows suppressed very deep inside... unfortunately this month they all came to the surface. Anxiety, depression, fear of failure, fear of success, fear of speaking, fear of not being heard, fear of never speaking to that person again who broke me but who I love with my whole heart... So I am a mess this month. I have picked up a few kgs. BUT! and this bit is really important! Our value does not lie in the weight we lose! That mentality really has to stop. Our value lies in the impact we make in the world around us and to the people whos lives we touch. Our value is our uniqueness, our weirdness and so much more. Our value is not in the scale on the floor. So - as a long-term daily weight logger... I have stopped doing that this month, and probably wont log a weigh in, hey - until whenever I feel ready to. I just felt today was the day to share some of this tangled emotional confused but still present bit of myself with you.
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1424 kcal
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Gras: 84,69g | Prot: 76,72g | Glu: 102,80g.
Petit Déjeuner: Naartjie. Déjeuner: Woolworths Gouda, Fry's Sausage Rolls. Dîner: Extra Virgin Olive Oil, Peas and Carrots, Sweet Potato Fries, I&J Hake Fillet. Snacks/Autre: Lindt Dark Chocolate. plus...
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You deserve all the praise you get. You deserve the success. You worked hard for it. I can relate. But one thing I have learnt. Is to let go. Let go of what you can’t control. Be thankful for the good that comes into our lives. We can’t control how our friends and family will act. So let it go. Forgive for your own happiness. Virtual and sanitized hugs 🤗 I know it will take time. I’ve been depressed numerous times. Unfortunately nothing I can say or do can help you out of the anxiety and depression you are feeling. I’m sorry and I hope you can reach out if you need someone to talk to.
02 juil. 21 par le membre: Fatgirlslim1982
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... Shereen you have touched my life, and made an impact on the way I show up
02 juil. 21 par le membre: Tamplyn
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Ah Shereen. I was wondering where you had gone to. Rooting for you, always xx
02 juil. 21 par le membre: Thilesha
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I couldn't agree more. By simply acknowledging those factors and being aware of their impact on you, your mental, physical and spiritual health, you are in control. The fact that you have taken a hiatus from this app is completely understandable, and no-one has the right to have any opinions on your decisions. Self-love, patience and time are sometimes the best remedies. You have a 100% success rate of getting through every difficulty you've ever had to face and this one is no different. Thinking of you, may you continue to thrive and flourish on your journey, love and light 🌻🌼
02 juil. 21 par le membre: IvyJo24
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I have really missed your posts so thank you for the update. I'm so sorry for what you've been going through and I hope that things improve and you can get back to feeling like yourself again.
Don't let anyone tear you down! You are a beautiful soul and you deserve all the light, love and happiness the universe has for you so keep shining that bright light of yours! If someone has hurt you it's usually the other person's issues and nothing really to do with you. Something I've looked into a while ago was Daring Greatly by Brene Brown - I've watched her talk on Netflix and some things on YouTube and she has books I haven't read yet, but some of her talks made me think about why people do things sometimes (myself included) - often fear or shame or a combination of those makes people say and do strange things. I don't really know what I'm trying to say or if this will be any help, but yes, I am rooting for you too and will always be in your corner!
We are here for you and you can always PM me. I still haven't gotten around to connecting with you on LinkedIn, but I will do in the coming weeks when I get to my new normal of life here in the UK. Sending you a huge virtual hug too! xxx
02 juil. 21 par le membre: Nikina70
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I've missed you're posts to I'm rooting for you my friend
02 juil. 21 par le membre: lisa1905s
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I was really worried and knew that something just wasn't right. I'm sorry you are having a rough time. It's such scary times we are living in. In the last 2 days, I've heard of friends (a couple) and mother and daughter that tested positive. They all live less than a kilometre from our home. I think all our lives to one degree or another are totally messed up right now. Be kind to yourself and vent, vent, vent, till you get it all out of your system. You have done so well on your journey and you are definitely admirable and commendable in what you have achieved. Be gentle with yourself, deep breaths, naps, whatever it takes. Eat the chocolate cake, the whole damn pizza or the burger and chips. Now is not the time to put undue stress on yourself. You are not defined by being successful all the time. That's impossible for any person in my humble opinion. We stumble, we fall, we pick ourselves up when we are ready. Weight loss and fitness goals never go away once you know what it takes. Whatever the narcissist did or said is their issue and always will be, exactly as Nikina70 said. They will lead you believe you are the reason for their crap behavior. Don't let them mess with your brain. I know you will pull through this, as I can see you are a strong woman. I will keep you in my prayers Shereen. Keep safe.
02 juil. 21 par le membre: SwoleMateBunny
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@ Shereen - We all experience things in different ways. The most important thing is to try and keep your mind healthy, the rest will follow. I applaud you for being brave enough to post and share your feelings with us🌹. Life is a rollercoaster, so remember ; there'll be highs and lows. It won't always just go well and won't always just go bad either. Take as much time as you need and do whatever you need to in order to cope. Sending you lots of love, loads of hugs and positive thoughts❤. Remember, we are all here to support you and we're just a text away. Please look after yourself, you are a strong woman and can totally do this! Xx
02 juil. 21 par le membre: Liela1993
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@Shereen, a few months ago, I wished the narcissist in my life happy birthday. Even though we haven’t spoken in 2 years. I didn’t get a reply. My birthday came, and I got a message. “Happy birthday Sis, this time I didn’t forget”. 🥺😭 I didn’t reply…
I’m at peace, I’m just not ready to speak to my sibling. I rather leave it at a good note. I’m afraid we might blow up again. Sigh 😔 i wish you the best. Thinking of you 🌸 just thought I’d share with you. 😘😘🤗
02 juil. 21 par le membre: Fatgirlslim1982
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Thank you for boldly sharing what you're going through.🌻 Strength and Love to you💛
02 juil. 21 par le membre: Wanderlustee
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Sis down under in the Cape…. This is All part of the journey, mine included. This “whyfuckenbotherness” has crept into many of our lives in the last 18 months, but it too shall pass and we will find our mojo again. We are fighters… pick up those boxing gloves and get the endorphins flowing again… P.S: where are those food pics and wonderful views of Cape Beach/sea?
02 juil. 21 par le membre: Fat Mike's
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Wow. I woke up to all your amazing messages ❤️ this really is a special community. I am So proud to be a part of a place that is such a safe space ❤️
03 juil. 21 par le membre: Shereen Donede
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I don't want this to be for selfish reasons (because I know you feel pressure of everyone looking up to you I guess), but I am really glad you are back - I checked in on your journal a few times and knew there has to be a reason you were "not around". I'm sorry for the undue pressure and anxiety you've felt lately, and for the hurt you've experienced as well. I really hope that you feel the light shining on you that you deserve. Take care of yourself first and foremost. You are beautiful inside and out. Xxx
03 juil. 21 par le membre: jigglenomore87
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04 juil. 21 par le membre: DomiDom01
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