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🤦♂️Good news: I did not take any 'before photos' when I started this current (& last) weight loss journey in May. But I found photos I took of myself in 2011 at 240 lbs, which was very close to my highest weight of 246 lbs on May 25, 2021, 10.5 years later.
😢Bad news: You can see the self-loathing. I hope I never ever feel that way again. I was very ill physically, going through huge stressors, including cancer. I used a tripod and no one saw me take these photos, because (maybe of maybe not???) loved ones would have seen the red flags and talked me into getting help. It took 3 more years, until 2014 when I was diagnosed with depression, and received help. Those years from 2007 to 2014 were really bad and I am so very happy that I am still here💖.
Thank-you all for your comments.
See my journal entry for Sep 9, 2021 to see why I deleted my 'before' photos. It had nothing to do with all these thoughtful comments here.
It had everything to do with the a different journal entry that I happened to just read that included 'cringe-worthy' misuse of photos of 2 different women.
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Gras: 39,64g | Prot: 51,72g | Glu: 156,20g.
Petit Déjeuner: Porridge_Oats Steel Cut Hearty Traditional-serving is 200g_Deelbee, Tap Water, Decaffeinated Coffee (made From Ground), Flaxseed Seeds, Bananas. Déjeuner: Tap Water, Decaffeinated Coffee, Orange, Armstrong Old Cheddar Cheese, Crispy Just Baked-TWI Foods Tandoori Naan-Traditional Style, Cucumber Tuna Salad Topping_Deelbee. Dîner: Spaghetti Squash - Baked (No Added Salt or Fat), Chunky Pepper Steak & Potato Soup, Tap Water, Carrots. Snacks/Autre: Senokot-S - Natural Senna Laxative Plus Stool Softener, Kirkland Signature Vitamin D3 (25Mcg / 1000 IU). plus...
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Exercice:
Lecture - 1 heure, Étirement (Yoga) - 30 minutes, Vaisselle - 20 minutes, Regarder TV - 4 heures, Repos - 12 heures et 15 minutes, Dormir - 5 heures et 55 minutes. plus...
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I don't have any "before" pictures. Don't let anyone take pictures of me until "after". Good luck on this journey. I am hoping this is the time it works for me and I stop the yo yo trend I've had my whole adult life.
02 sept. 21 par le membre: Fritzy 22
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Aw this is possibly the saddest images I’ve seen. I hate so much that you felt like this, that anyone would… you’ve come so far ❤️
02 sept. 21 par le membre: TorStar80
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The pain some nice folks have to go through is heartbreaking. ❤️SMH.
Wishing you all the self-love you deserve to revel in and enjoy ten years later.
Cheers!
02 sept. 21 par le membre: jollyfox
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So glad you are feeling better - an feeling better about yourself! The very best kind of progress. All the best in your continuing journey 💕
02 sept. 21 par le membre: grammalaura
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Thank you for sharing. I’m happy you’re still here too
03 sept. 21 par le membre: cindylynnwho
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Great news: you are here. you matter. you have a community of support here should you need. 🤗
03 sept. 21 par le membre: IJT's Mom
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Sending you love and hugs.
03 sept. 21 par le membre: liz-andra
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Oh how I know that feeling! I am happy you are here too! and so brave it took a lot of courage to post those pics! BRAVO!
03 sept. 21 par le membre: karenbell399
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That you're here shows you are strong & willing to fight for you health. Keep going :-)
03 sept. 21 par le membre: mrsclassicscrazy
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Thank-you all for your support. It was only when I first saw the images on an old hard-drive, that I had any memory at all, of taking them. They brought tears to my eyes too. I almost deleted them 30 seconds after posting, as I thought they are just too pitiful for FS public view. But then I realized I no longer feel that way...it is history...and I am very much looking forward to my next 20(30) years. ***If anyone feels the way I appear in those photos, please ask for help, don't suffer needlessly alone.*** Some day, I might post what happened in 2007 that triggered the depression, and the reason why am fairly certain that I will not have a re-occurrence. Also I am really looking forward to posting my 'after' photos in Dec 2022 at my goal weight with a big smile on my face.😃
04 sept. 21 par le membre: deelbee
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Thank you for sharing Deelbee - you have helped at least one person (that'd be me) with your post already and I suspect many more besides!
05 sept. 21 par le membre: Fozzy61
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The important thing is you never gave up (me too). Thank you for sharing as we all draw on each other’s successes and you’re doing g a great job. Keep on track and stay in the moment. You have reminded me of my struggle with weight and given me strength. Funny thing is I seldom look in the comments area of this app but today I did. 🙏🏼 🤗 💞
05 sept. 21 par le membre: lessofgrace
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Moving forward IS THE HARDEST THING! look forward: that’s where you want to go, and by getting up and trying again, you already are half way there 😃👏👏👏 Keep going 👍
05 sept. 21 par le membre: Geffer
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Thank you for sharing your journey. You are incredibly brave and I admire your courage and honesty. My young daughter is struggling significantly with self esteem and body image issues and helping her see this is not an age related issue will help.
06 sept. 21 par le membre: NoDadBod
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you can do it , im starting fresh today for the 900th time in the last 4 yrs its very hard especially when u injoy food. and foods all around, but you can crush this and next pic please take that bqg off your head because your human and you mattter
06 sept. 21 par le membre: dAniimoghim
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happy for you! hanging in there and you will be fine.
07 sept. 21 par le membre: smilynancy
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