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Not a good day, not a good day at all...So much going on today. I had a great weekend and everything was going just fine, but as always here it comes.. WHY!?! I just don't understand because as soon as I get it in my head to lose the weight 50 million things seem to come at me at the same time. This is one of those times where food would really make me feel better, but then if I eat, I am ultimately killing myself. I am suffering and it isn't an easy thing to get over,but I know I'll get through it. It's hard not having support from people who understand, but I can't expect everyone to feel as strongly as I do about other people's feelings. Many say that I never call, but whenever I do call they aren't there for me, soooo I STOP calling...Oh well, in this life you come in alone, and you die alone, anuything in between that is a blessing. I was told the loniesst people had the biggest work to do and so God makes it that way. I don't want to be alone, I don't want to over eat, I don't want to eat out of my emotions, and I don't want to succomb to this life of misery. i have to keep pushing forward and pressing my way each and every day...
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