Journal de DAZEY_iz_Well, 20 nov. 23

(((HUGS))) DAZEY. I'm so sorry for what happened to you and for what you're having to go through now, but you're doing the right thing. Holding you in my heart. 💚💜💛 

when you don't have the strength to do it for yourself , then make the best life for the child Today's a new day and a new opportunity, good luck 💯 

I can totally relate to what you are saying. My childhood was challenging so when I married an alcoholic I had no clue what a normal life was like. I stayed with him until he was tired of torturing me in every way possible. He thought he had found someone else but it was short-lived, like days. I didn't think or know I deserved anything better. I didn't even know he was an alcoholic until a counselor we saw when he decided he wanted me back told me he was. He told her that he just wanted to sow some wild oats and then return home to me. I could tell that she was disgusted by him. Detested him. She recommended that I not go back and I didn't. I know it may seem to many people that you are I are stupid but they didn't walk in our shoes. It's easy for others to be judgmental when they have no clue what they are talking about. Unlike you when I was dumped by him I am a nurse and never knew how much other people I worked with cared about me. I was surrounded by people who made a pact with each other to get me back on my feet and they did.They gave me my self-esteem back. They helped me to become the strong individual I was prior to when I was beaten down by a loser. They baby-sat me like a child until I was ready to stand up on my own 2 feet again. I wish you had that kind of support. I sent a prayer for you. Hugs.  

Working through past trauma is huge. Hope the light shines through soon. 💟 

If it were easy to leave sooner, you would have done so. Many women are victimized the way you have been. I hope you remain strong and get the support you deserve. 

I can relate. thank you for sharing. i'm doing trauma work and what do you know? I've gained 9 pounds! i'm truly trying to comfort myself. it's hard, but it's possible to change. you're strong and an inspiration. keep going. 💪 

Dazey we are all a work in progress. Be kind to yourself. You deserve it. 

Dazey we are all a work in progress. Be kind to yourself. You deserve it. 

Hugs to you. You did not deserve that and it’s not your fault. I need to do trauma work, but I’ve buried it so deep that I’ve forgotten about a lot of the specifics. I know once I start, I’m going to keep remembering more and more. Do I really want to relive all that? 

People who ask "why didn't you leave" are just fortunate enough to either have not been in such a relationship or have the support system to have done so safely. Keep doing what you're doing and congrats on surviving your situation.  

I lived with my "Maniac" for 12 years, lost my 2 boys to the CPS system....it took living in Dallas and hiding for a good while to get free. I will be 71 next month and those memories are still there....There is no excuse ever valid or defensible for such abuse. My heart and prayers go out to you and others in these circumstances. Take care of you...daily. 

Praying for you 

I pray you are getting some help ~ I can easily be a binge eater but have found that exercise ... whatever you can do.. helps to make be feel so much better and not want to mess up the good I have given to my body by binging :)