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Sometimes our greatest "need" is a big, deep EXHALE! This site is full of people who’s lives become connected to our own. And with that, people experience all of life’s ‘troubles’ with one another. Thank God for that. For some of us, it becomes the sanity in our insanity!!!
From breakups, to divorce…from death, to sickness and worry… from kids, and hubby’s, and aging parents…from lost jobs to near financial destruction, … it’s all there. The ups and the downs. The stress…and the constant pressures of life can be OVERWHELMING!
And while trying to keep some perspective from each of these life challenges…there is a constant thread of wanting to maintain our norm…and focus on the things we do have an ability to control… our weight and our eating habits and our commitment to daily activity.
Sometimes, I think it IS the much need distraction to focus on, while all the rest swirls around me. Other times, I just have to ‘sit with’ the various concerns of my heart, and whisper to my Lord – I need you… one more time. (Good thing that is not the only time I talk to Him)
My husband sometimes tells me I am too sensitive. – How can that be? Really. How can one be too sensitive. Are you not just either sensitive or not. Do I care tooooo deeply. Is there such a thing? And more than that, is it his way of justifying not being sensitive – because he prefers the ‘disconnect = no involvement” lifestyle.
Don’t get me wrong… I couldn’t love my husband more if I tried…and God knows we have had our issues! But he has some areas (self-professed) to work on. And becoming the Emotional Leader of our family…is one of them. However, he views emotion, as a weakness. So this becomes a rather ‘difficult’ topic for us in our abilities to communicate and give and receive support from one another.
Whoa – how does he fit into all of this??? Well, I was chatting w/ him early this morning about how my heart wanted to focus on the ‘moment’ the ‘situation’ the ‘care and concern’ I was experiencing for someone else… but my head was saying…stay in the game, focus, …for the first time in months you are making headway! (Weighed in to a slight decrease!!!) And then I started to feel guilty. – Seriously – Who wants to come on here and get all WHOOO HOO and all that over my stupid little decrease, when they are walking in their own troubles at the moment.
And when I was dealing w/ the skin cancer, or the threat of a lump being removed and was it cancer ?? When I was dealing w/ my Dad’s death, or constantly dealing w/ my Mom and all those issues… I sometimes do miss the excitement someone else is feeling over their ‘one little pound’ ! I had my moment in the ‘sun’ – this morning, while standing on the scale. I cheered myself on as I looked in the mirror. And I’m good with that.
And that is when I realized the need to EXHALE. To move outside of our troubles, and have some little thing to focus on that seems to keep the horizon steady. So, if you want to Whooop it Up with me.. great! And if you just need to exhale on my journal this morning, that’s ok too! Cry, scream, vent away… I’ve been there. And I am happy to hold your hand, and support you if you need to go there yourself!
But then I hope you find your way back to making YOU a priority. Every minute of every day… you can still force yourself to live in the moment, choose wisely, and stay focused on ‘stupid little goals’ we fight so hard to achieve. – It makes us human. And gives us wonderful diversion to an otherwise stressful day.
Love Ya Much!!!
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