Journal de debbra, 18 mai 17

My one year old puppy was killed yesterday. She was playing in our backyard, and I heard her screaming and struggling from behind the bushes. And then she was gone. We searched everywhere. But we saw two hawks hovering about a half hour later, and we heard an owl. We had fortified our fence with chicken wire, and I believed the raccoons or coyotes couldn't get in. We live on the top of a canyon and have a lot of brush and bushes. So I thought our dogs were not visible to predators. Now I know that was stupid. I'm numb, but I did a lot of crying yesterday. And now I'm emotionally drained and exhausted. I have had no appetite. This is not the diet I wanted. I just wanted to record my experience here for my own sake, to get it out of me, although this is draining me as well. My two dogs are the first dogs I've ever had, due to allergy in my family when I was growing up. So this is a painfully new experience for me. I know dogs don't live forever, and I don't want to complain. I'm thankful that she died quickly. I'm sure I heard her last moments as the sounds ended abruptly. She was a sweetheart, happy, spirited little baby. And I miss her terribly. Rest in Peace, my little Lucy.

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947 kcal

Gras: 59,16g | Prot: 64,76g | Glu: 35,07g.   Petit Déjeuner: Equal Sweeteners (Aspartame) Packets, Whole Milk, Nescafe Taster's Choice Hazelnut Roast Instant Coffee. Déjeuner: Benecol Regular Vegetable Oil Spread, Brie Cheese, Whole Foods Market Cranberry Tuna Salad. Dîner: Plain Matzo, Lamb. plus...