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So wow, i think i'm officially in Onderland!! It's been about a week since i've seen the scale go over 200. It feels amazing. It feels weird. It feels surreal.
I guess i don't really even know what my emotion should be other than to be happy and confident that i can do this. I'm still scared that at any moment it'll go back up. It doesn't feel real that i'm meant to stay in Onederland.
I was over 200lbs for the past 8+ years. It is what i'm used to. I'm not used to being "content" with my weight. Not that i'm content right now, but i have a 1 before my weight instead of a 2. I'm really looking forward to getting to the 180's, that's my next major goal.
This is certainly easier but i just wonder if i have to keep lowering my calories (i don't track very well on here)to get further or if i can just keep up what i'm doing now and get to my goal weight.
It feels good, fitting into different clothes, and my dad's wife said this weekend that i look like i'm at a "healthy weight". Ha, i find that pretty darn hard to believe as i still have at least 30 pounds to go, but maybe to the public eye i don't look as freakishly obese any longer.
I'm sticking with this....
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