Journal de HerStrawberri, 22 août 11

No use in dwelling on the past, even if it includes yesterday, lol. The most important thing right now is to move forward, & the nice thing about Mondays is that they mark the start of a new week, unless you consider Sunday to be the start of the new week, in which case it's still pretty much true. ;) Considering what you went through yesterday it's understandable that eating properly wasn't high on your list of priorities. Chalk it up & move on baby, you & I are both going to make this week awesome. (((hugs))) 

Thanks so much Kat! YES WE ARE! I'm feeling better. You are right. The past is the past. I start a new chapter in my life in a few days and I'm NOT letting this crazy women ruin that for me. Thank you so much for all of your encouragement and support Kat. =) 

Support is better than advice sometimes, and I'm not telling you what to do, but I want to share what has worked for me. I was restricting myself to 1200-1400 calories a day, working out, and losing weight very slow. As soon as I bumped my cals to 1500-1700 (keeping workouts the same) it started falling off!! Everybody loses weight differently. Keep at it! Every day is a new day! Good luck!! 

You will move on at least you and P are on the same page that really helps. You know it is normal to not feel hungry sometimes, especially when you have had something awful to deal with. I do wonder if in the past you would have gone on an eating binge? maybe that is something that has changed for you, a good change. Good luck with your going forward :) {{HUGS}}} 

I'm sorry for a bad weekend. But just know that things will look up. As for eating you know what you have to do and you'll do it. I love what Kstuffblefield said...Monday is a new beginning. Its a fresh start to a fresh you....So get em!!!!! 

Thank you amandabeth! You are SO right Yvonne about the binging thing. I would of ran to whatever chocolate or sweets I had in the house. I *think* or *HOPE* I have beat that evil monkey I had on my back for most of my life. I even have brownie ice cream in my freezer right now and i want NOTHING to do with it. I honestly think once you *REALLY* make up your mind to just STOP putting all the crap in your mouth...you REALLY CAN do it. Anyway, thank you so much for your kind words. Thank you orchidannie!  

So you had crap intake... you also had a crap weekend... so I think that you should put it behind you and work on today, and when today is over put it behind you and work on tomorrow and so forth... this is a learning experience and I have read that if we eat when we are hungry than that is good.. so if you only ate 600 calories maybe its not so awesome but its one day, today try to double it. You can do this...  

Thanks Pixi! You are totally right. It was only one day. =) I had a good breakfast and will continue the rest of the day and week. I hope YOU have a great day as well! 

I second what the others said. Don't beat yourself up either. I was kind of worried that yesterday was going to set you up for a binge, just from my own personal experiences. High FIVE my friend!  

Wow... you had a really rough day yesterday! And I get that you're still sad about it. Torn, probably. You KNOW she deserved to get a new one torn, but hated that it was you that did it for her. Still... damn, that woman had it coming! But I agree with everyone else - you included. She MUST be a most miserable person and I can't even imagine how miserable she must be. Because if you treat people that way, you have to hate yourself most of all. That certainly doesn't excuse her, though. I feel really bad for your girl - no matter what, this is her mom. That's not a position I'd want to be in, for sure. Anyway, on to today and here's to healthy eat and yes, eat enough! You really need to keep that metabolism stoked up. You know you can't exist forever eating 800 calories, so you know you don't want to set your body up to burn only that much in a day. But, not telling you anything you don't already know. Just keep looking forward - you have much to look forward to! 

Thanks red! I feel really bad for my P too. She tries so hard to do the right by her mom. Even though she doesn't deserve it AT ALL. As much as that crazy women has done to me, she has done 3 fold on my P and her bro. She is taking ot better then i thought. i spent most of the night, last night, apologizing. It still IS her mom and I just didn't want her to be mad at me. She knows she had it coming and also knows just how mean her mom can be. I still feel so terrible though. The evil MIL actually yelled at my P because she stuck up for me and not her. It's like she doesn't acknowledge AT ALL how mean her comments are. Thinks it's ok to call people fat. She even wishes her BFF would get cancer so she would die and the EMIL could have her BFFs hubby. HOW FREAKING WRONG IS THAT!!!!! Anyway, i don't want to keep bashing her. She is a sad, depressed, lonely women who is going to die all by herself. Thank you for your kind words red! 

Sorry about TOM and MIL. But congrats on your progress! 

Just remember we all love you and are here to give hugs and be there when you need us.I had an evil mother,I can soooo relate. 

Concentrate on yourself first, and then P. Nuture and love yourself, do not make negative statements as you may assimilate them. Try, with all your might, to say at least one good and positive thing about yourself every day AND MEAN IT. Do not waste valuable energy on negative people, related or otherwise, you need every ounce of strength to fight the GOOD fight of healthy living. Rehashing is reliving, let it go and free yourself of the burden of hate and anger caused by unhealthy relationships such as your MIL. I too have lived this and I know what a horrible place it is to be, I wish much better for you! You're making excellent progress but please take care of yourself! Big hugs.