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All of us but the 2 babies are sick. Ugh! Just came on over night. I still need to work, I dont work we dont eat. Not use to that.Im going to get back to exercising when I feel better. I am going to get back on track.
My aunt stopped talking to me months ago and I wondered why. I thought it was because my birthmother came back into my aunts life. Well everything blew up the other night and she said she doesnt talk to me bc she doesnt want to hear about my perfect life. I never once told her my life was perfect. My husband says it is because she is jealous of me. I didnt want to believe that but now I think I do. She was so proud of me losing weight until I lost more than her, then she stopped calling adn talking to me. I got fat to please my family, a family that never showed me love because I was different than them, then they still didnt love me when I was fat, so I decided it was time to get my life back, then I lost 95lbs in a year and now they are mad?! Are you kidding me?
I decided that night a few nights ago when this all blew up that I had enough. I would just eat what I wanted and if I gained the weight back so be it. Thru lots and lots of prayer and thinking I decided no, I will not do that. I deserve to be healthy just like the next person and what they are doing is dysfunctional. They may have motivated me more to lose this weight and stay healthy.
Its just sad that people have to deal with this. That others can be so awful that they can pray for them to fail, they can "disown" them when they succeed or try anything in their power to knock them off course. What ever happened to lifting others up? The Bible says,
Ephesians 4:29 Do not let any unwholesome talk come out of your mouths, but only what is helpful for building others up according to their needs, that it may benefit those who listen. I cant even imagine a world like that, if we all truly believed that scripture and followed it.
Know that regardless of what anyone says You deserve to be healthy and fit!
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74,8 kg
Perdu jusqu'à présent: 40,4 kg.
Reste à parcourir: 3,2 kg.
Régime suivi: Raisonnablement Bien.
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Perdant 9,5 kg par Semaine
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