Journal de PizzaLover88, 06 juil. 16

Because of my eating disorder I heard many times: just stop dieting and you'll be fine. So I did, I stopped restricting myself of all food I love and I crave, the result so far has been that I gained almost 10lb in just a couple of weeks. I ate a lot I'm not denying it, but I'm a binge eater and without a strict diet I go out of control, I think only about food, and I feel good only eating. But it's like a dead circle, if I eat I gain weight and my anxiety and depression goes up, but if I'm anxious and depressed I eat to feel better... Lots of people have been judgmental on how I look now (since my extra pounds are obviously visible), one of my friend told me the other day: "if you keep on going in this direction, can I have all your dresses?" ....I know maybe she was just joking but I felt really bad, sometimes I feel really hopeless with this BED. The truth is that my entire wardrobe is already too small and every day I have no idea what to wear, from one week to another one things are not fitting me anymore. Who said that diets are wrong never had a binge eating disorder!