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I was looking at my younger daughter and just feeling wonderful. I can honestly say she is a delight to me. It made me realize that I need to be careful and be proactive about delighting in my other daughter also. My 5 year old is a sweet heart in her own right. Often though I know I get frustrated with her because I see her exercising poor judgment, being complacent or compromising when I know she is capable of doing well instead of just ok, or flat out kicking against the goads/ trying to buck authority with me or daddy...in other words, being a normal, flawed human being. I am learning how to be more patient- sometimes by necessity, if for no other reason; however, I need to learn to see where my will is free to enjoy her more even when I might not be inclined to see her as that pleasant to be around. I love her. I know that, even if a lot of times I associate that idea more with feeling enamored instead of caring about her as a whole person. I just want to be careful that she understands that I love her too. I want her to know that I see so much promise in her. I am grateful I think her childhood will be better/ more stable and healthy than mine was- at least so far it seems that way.
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