Journal de Annisworkingonit, 22 juin 24

Good morning FS Friends

Yesterday was John's 64th birthday. It was also the day we picked up his ashes so for the time being he is back here by the river.

The past days have been a flurry of activity. His sons had come to help clear his things. Heartbreaking to watch his truck be driven off. I will miss that roar of its' coming and going. I guess it's not the truck so much as how it came to be so closely identified with the man who I was forever going on field trips with whether to go watch boats come into the Welland Canal in Port Colborne, shopping, picking up building materials or just going through a Timmies drive through.

I remain lost. Sleep (or lack thereof) was an issue until last night as I had contacted my GP asking for help. Melatonin did nothing. When I went to pick up the script my pharmacist knew something was up. The beauty of small town living is that the people that provide services actually know you and are aware that certain medications are totally out of the norm. I broke down.

Food is a real issue at the moment. Up until John's passing my appetite was healthy. Ozempic helped me tame the junk beast and incessant food noise but never took away my palate or appetite. Seemingly John's passing has done that. I didn't take my injection this week and won't until my system normalises. I am so very close to nearing goal and John was so very proud of how far I've come. He would not want me to stop with the program and revert to old ways. And so when I'm ready, I'll be back on track.

Over and out

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760 kcal

Gras: 31,66g | Prot: 44,78g | Glu: 79,01g.   Petit Déjeuner: Orgain Organic Protein Plant Based Protein Powder Creamy Chocolate Fudge, GNC Wheybolic Classic Vanilla. Déjeuner: Tim Hortons Iced Capp - Medium. Dîner: Cheeseburger. Snacks/Autre: Gatorade G2 Perform 02 - Cool Blue. plus...