Journal de suechru

Home finally, this is going to be brief because I've literally been going non-stop since 9 am this morning and I still have a bunch of stuff to attend to before I can sleep.

I mapped it out and even though I didn't "technically" exercise today I ended up walking over 2 miles with school - if there's one day a week where I move that much and don't do official exercise, I can live with it and doubt it'll hurt me. (Especially since that walking entails me carrying one heavy ass bookbag.)

I am feeling much better today after spending most of yesterday asleep on the couch. The downside is that I'm a little behind on everything and I keep having more stuff added to my calendar (I'm seriously booked solid for most of next week between job search stuff and school stuff.) I have to be on the road tomorrow by 6:45 to drive to this company visit with the MBA program so there's not going to be a lot of sleep for me tonight. On the upside, I am free tomorrow afternoon and already have plans to go to an impromptu BBQ at a friend's house. So yay!

Ate on the go today (like me grabbing a sandwich from the caf at school) and then random stuff from meetings. I approximated entering it but I think I'm fine calorie wise.

Affirmations for today:
1) Comparisons to other people serve no real purpose

2) Today's hard work leads to tomorrow's successes

3) Change your thoughts, change your habits, change your mind, change your body, change your life.

Ugh, I think I have food poisoning.

I went into the city yesterday because I was able to snag a last minute ticket to a broadway show at a good price. I figured doing something I love would help pull me out of the funk I've been in lately. En route to the evening show I stopped at this sandwich place - the sandwich tasted fine when I ate it but this morning I woke up this morning in agony.

All I can think is that it HAS to be what I ate yesterday at that place in the city since breakfast/dinner were typical home stuff. I guess I can be thankful I don't have to BE anywhere today.

I want to go walk (especially because it's beautifully sunny out there) but there's no way. Right now I'm alternating between my couch and the bathroom.

On more positive news, I did have an AMAZING time yesterday otherwise. I actually got Keifer Sutherland's autograph at the stage door after the play. So that was a very cool experience. I also have a few interviews I'm lining up so also encouraging.

I just wish my stomach would stop hurting.

It's official. I'm doing The Overnight an 18 mile walk on June 4-5 2011. I'm the captain of the Rutgers team and I'm hoping I might get some fellow students to join me. I started a facebook page and posted some links for the team so we'll see if it takes off.

I guess this is one way to make sure I'll exercise regularly, lol

Here's a link and I've also put it in my signature.
http://theovernight.donordrive.com/participant/suechru

I'll actually update my personal page in the morning/tomorrow. Right now, I need sleep. Desperately.

Okay, buddies... I need some input.

There's an all-night walk for suicide awareness and prevention in June in NYC http://www.theovernight.org

Basically the concept is that you raise $1000 and walk all night (from sunset to sunrise) for 18 miles. It looks absolutely awesome and for a multitude of reasons this speaks to me (I'm sure most of you have an idea why at this point). But it's raising $1000 - when I suck at fundraising and walking 18 miles (which I'm really not sure I can do - even in June after months of training.)

I actually signed up to do this like 5 years ago and couldn't raise enough so I just gave up. Now that I'm almost TWO YEARS away from the darkness I was living in, I really want do this but I don't want to sign up to flake out again. I also really am not sure if I want to do this alone - and with the distance/fundraising minimum I'm not sure I can get anyone else to join me.

So I don't know, I'm really tempted. I feel like it might be the next reasonable step with where I am on my journey but... man, can I do this? Seriously, the most I walk at once is 5-6 miles tops. 18 is a LOT. Part of my brain is screaming "You're insane to even consider this" but this little idea has been tickling the back of my brain for months now and I have to think that it's not going away for a reason. That this is some kind of destiny that the walk is in NYC again THIS year (I live in NJ so I could easily have some kind of cheering section.)

Is it even possible for me to be in shape enough to do this come June?